we talked about him again!!!!!!
YES HIM -that guy called LIM..
sometimes i just want to flush out my anger to you but it just seems so so so impossible !!!
anyways it is over with him already isnt it.
i really hope this is the last time.
i can feel the strong anger and mix feeling in you..
will we be alright??can you really forget??
i bet everything on you.
may god blessed us ..
loves vonx vonx
dont forget to cling tight to ur bed tonight ^^

I JUST WANNA FALL BACK INTO YOUR ARMS.
I HATE TO STUDY AND THIS TIRED MY BRAIN.
I JUST NEED A MIN OF REST UNDER YOUR ARMS AND I WILL BE ALRIGHT.
WILL YOU HUG ME FOR A SEC???
I REALLY NEED THAT COMFORT.

truthfully..i am scare.

i just cant say this out to you.

there is alots of things i didnt want to mention.

Cox the way you smile always make me forget my troubles.

but not when u are not around.

i just loss my emotion when u are gone,when ur voice become silence in my ears.

actually i feel quite sad.

it's been 4 days le but i still feel terrible.

the insecure feeling came back

afriad of losing you for what happened to my fren.

you might say "aiya a person where got so easy die de?"

but i look around and think back there is quite a few people i know was dead.

be it, how unlucky i am or they are suay to know me,i dont know.

i am just scare.

all i want from god is the health not the wealth

so pls god let us be healthily.

i rather u leave me bcox of another girl rather than u dead in front of me.

although i dont like the idea above but still i just want you to be happy.

i just want to spend more percious time with you.

cox our time is limited .

it's just 60+ more years..

and seriously i dont think it is enough for us.

i love you,baby.

take cares.

ps: dont keep going gym and tan.i dont wan you to tired urself and additions to the percentage of skin cancer increase as u tan.

i know i cant make u all mine.
so i decided to let go bit by bit.
never realise how long can we still hold together.
i know that u hate to hear that from me.
but i knew i cant move on any futher...
sad to said,we are not as strong as the past.
like i said,it's the past that i know it will never come back to me ever again.
i know that deep down in my heart,
that u never gonna change back to the metro boy i knew u was.
by the time u scar my heart with your most ugly words,
i know it is almost all over.
i just hang on because i do not know which step was the right path for me.
for me, break up and being together was just a step away.
i still feel this even though we are together with no quarrell at all.
i guess this is because i tried to change into someone that is completely different from myself just to suit you.
this make me so uncomfortable.
i do not like that seriously.
but if i didnt change,i guess we wouldn't move on cox u arent trying hard enough for me from the way i see.
therefore i scrafice myself for this relationship to improve,
cox i know u wouldnt to treat me better anymore.
it break my heart whenever i heard excuses that the reason u cannot treat me better is that u can't spoil me.
but do u know how much i wanna be spoiled by my own bf.
who didnt like to be spoiled by their special someone.
u might think i am stubborn,unreasonable.
but i have changed 360 degree and become quite understanding toward you now.
wat have i got in return??
a less caring,loving and inconsiderate boyfriend who tells me i cant be spoiled anymore.
i just hate our relation.

i do not need you to provide me with money.
i just need love and care from you which i desperately needed .
i know u hate me to say that but it's all true.
i still kept myself slience in your world.
with so many question and so many unwillingness,
all i can is to keep it inside myself,
afriad to let you know ,
afriad of everything that might happen.
i cant move on anymore..
i need to choose a path quickly.
your change u promise me = no change at all.
u forget the minute u promised me.
and i realise it by now.
are we done yet or are u just gonna pretend we are a perfect match.
let's break up ba and i am quite tried already cox u have been getting futher from the man i loved.
u are no longer "jian you".....